At 2am in the morning, while laying awake in meditation, I was visited by my Master Sri Mahavatar Babaji. Babaji spoke to me gently, telling me that I was going to die. ‘When and how long?’ I asked, feeling somewhat shocked. ‘ In three minutes’ answered Babaji. When he said this I was overwhelmed with a feeling of finality. Holding my hand he assured me that everything was going to be okay. Feeling very nervous and deeply shocked that my life was going to be over in just three minutes, (as I was not ill, neither was I in an accident), I asked Babaji was it going to hurt. He answered me by intensifying a feeling around me of Divine love, security, peace and joy.

While my breath became shallow, I was engulfed in this feeling again of absolute finality. This is it I thought, death is here, and there is nothing I can do about it. I trusted my Master as I felt a heavy pressure on my chest. My breathing was a little uncomfortable but not painful. I knew Babaji, by his grace, was helping me to make the transition in to death a pleasant one, as I could feel his presence intensify as my breathing became more shallow and for this, I am eternally grateful.

           When I was aware that I was about to draw my last breath. I thought of my partner and my two boys who I loved. I desperately tried to move and let my partner know I was dying but I just could not move. I felt so weak as I felt the pressure on my chest increase and my breathing becoming more shallow. This is not fair I thought. I have not said good bye to my two wonderful boys and I can’t say good bye to my partner who I adored and loved deeply and who is lying right next to me! Thoughts of my partner, waking up to a corpse lying next to him in  bed, was not what I wanted for him, and for me as a last thought, in my conscious mind on earth. I kept thinking over and over, I am leaving them behind and what a terrible shock for my boys and my partner. Yet at the same time I had to concentrate on my transition into the Light. This was it, my life was over, I was dying and I had to surrender and make it easy for myself, for I intuitively knew, that if I tried to fight death, my last breath would have been a painful one. And this was not what Babaji wanted for me and neither did I. As I tried to concentrate on my shallow breathing, I felt the Light around me intensify with a feeling of peace and joy. Then as I drew my last breath I immediately found myself out of my body and straight into the Light.

     As I entered the Light I could feel the indescribable joy, the feeling of aliveness, the power and intensity of this Divine Force.  My spirit immediately recognised it was God, the Life Force, Infinite Intelligence. I was amazed and shocked by the beauty of this magnificent Light. The Light was bright and intense and I could hear and feel the Light vibrate as the ultimate most beautiful music of the Universe - it was being the song - eternal bliss. No words can truly describe the Light.

    As I looked around me in the Light I knew I was dead to the world, yet alive to another realm. And my first thought was, this is DEATH?  I never felt more alive, loved and safe, so how could this be death?

 Held in a state of grace I could feel the Light pulling me gently ever deeper into itself. As I allowed myself to go deeper into the Light of intense ecstasy, I felt myself being in a timeless state and I could feel myself being immersed into God Consciousness - in Being - in the Light. My thinking became clear as God was manifesting its state of Being and higher consciousness to me.

I experienced the Light/God revealing itself to me as unconditional love accompanied with an immense feeling of security and peace. There was nothing negative in God, just pure Being, in ecstasy of itself, in pure consciousness. It felt like I belonged and was at home. I experienced God, The Light in His state of Being as the Self radiant, Self sustaining, Self existing and Self Loving Life Force. I realised God loving Himself as the Higher Self and as there is only one Self, he was loving us all. I then saw God/The Light as a circle, eternal life bending back on itself, because He had life in Himself. And I could feel Him drawing unending energy/life from within Himself as an uncaused being, in an excited state, having its own reference point of Being.  At this point I realised that this beautiful life force was within us all, as our Higher Self.

As I was being drawn further into the Light I found myself in telepathic communication with the Light. Much was said to me which I am writing as an E-book now.

   Then I found myself seeing and feeling my life flash before me. But to my surprise, I was only to see the positive. I was encouraged with hearing from the Light, the words ‘you tried your best’. Then I felt a loving sense of knowing, from the Light, that I had suffered enough on earth so I was not to be shown anything negative. I felt there was no judgement but instead tremendous encouragement. After conversing with the Light and believing I was never going to go back, I found myself hearing the words ‘you are connected and I want you to go back’.

I felt the presence of the Light being with me as I went backwards through a dark tunnel and entering my body with a jolt. Back in my body, I tried to feel the feeling I had experienced with the Light but it was gone. I called on Babaji but I heard nothing.  I was back in the world of contrasting emotions and negativity. But the memory of the Light which is in us all, as our Higher Self, remains in me as God consciousness in higher thinking and being.

Deborah Anderson

www.godconsciousnessnow.com